This afternoon Lucy received her first dose of H1N1 vaccine. Whew. I didn't debate about this vaccine at all. OK, I have fears about vaccine related injury and illness, I do... I delayed vax Lucy and had her titers checked so as to not unnecessarily revaccinate her for anything she had immunity to from her time in Ethiopia. I am a careful vaccinator but a vaccinator nonetheless.
I fear that my child might die. Yup. I think about it a lot. Don't know why .. be it from the grapes, a car accident, adenoid/tonsil surgery I worry. I worry a lot. She had a lot of respiratory issues starting in Ethiopia. The day after we got home from Ethiopia she started getting a fever, which didn't go away which ultimately had her dx'd with RSV which led to the asthma. She had sinus infection on top of sinus infection and from my monitor (that i still have) I could hear her snoring snoring snoring ... silence, dreadful silence dreadful silence (i sit up in bed, i start toward her door) then GASP, turn snore snore snore ... for YEARS. Haven't heard that since the tonsils came out.
Still I fear. I fear the H1N1. I fear she'll be one of those that gets hit hard. So now, just a week or so until some immunity kicks in ... and hopefully in a month we'll be able to find a 2nd dose for her. Now to find me some vaccine so I don't leave her orphaned again (another fear).