Thursday, September 18, 2008

Abbigail Grace

Abbigail Grace was born still on May 28, 2008. Abbi was the beautiful daughter of my cousin Sheri.

It took me a long time to write this post even though I thought about it often. It is not all I wanted to say but since this blog is here in part to provide a history of sorts to Lucy, it was important for me to write about her little cousin Abbi.

I was thinking about Abbi the other day after seeing a little newborn babe. I remember the day I found out Sheri was pregnant, thinking that her friend had accidentally let the cat out of the bag through an email. I was giddy and excited when Sheri returned my cautious email inquiry about her pregnancy and I couldn't wait to have another cousin to share the joys of motherhood (especially single mother hood). When I heard that Abbi had died and that Sheri was in a dangerous medical state as well my heart just dropped. I had this feeling of wanting to stop it all and fix it. Knowing that Sheri would have to leave the hospital without her daughter broke my heart and left me with a sadness that brings me to tears each time I recollect it.

so a little letter to my tiny cuz Abbi

Dear Abbi,

I sure wish you had spent some more time with us here on earth. I was so looking forward to flying out to see you and snuzzle your little newborn head. Your momma sent photos of you and you were just the most beautiful little girl, little girl big feet! Your cousin (2nd cousin? twice removed??) Lucy would have totally taught you all of the necessary skills to be a sassy little fashionista. Your momma was SOOOO excited about you, I could sense it coming off those emails! While your mom was pregnant I was busy planning ways of convincing her to move here to Minnesota just so we could hang out. Don't worry little girl, you'll always be remembered in this house and we'll celebrate your place in this world.

Love you,


Anonymous said...

I still cry, and my heart goes out to Sherri, Grandma and Grandpa and Uncle Jason. Beautiful post my darling daughter.

Linlin said...

Oh God, this is beyond words... My sister is due to give birth any day now (actually, it was expected yesterday) and I cannot even begin to describe how nervous I am for her and the baby...

Malia'sMama said...

This made me cry for Abbi, for Sheri and fo rthe memory of my own little girls- one inside me, one in Ethiopia that I never got to hold...