Thursday, July 17, 2008
Well our vacation is officially over. I mean, thankfully I didn't have to go to work. I did, however wake up with a scared Lucy who STAYED AWAKE FROM 12:30 AM UNTIL 3:30ISH AM. I have been traumatized. Seriously. These things exhaust me, bring me to the edge of sane parenthood and make me question everything about parenting, not to mention they bring me nearly to the end of my patience rope. Last night I almost was as scary as the monster aka "do do". Tonight the fears started the minute she got into bed and I had to coach myself inside of my head to be the parent, to be the comforter and the rational one. I stayed strong about her having to stay in her bed but I tried to do everything else to make her feel safe. I had one little snap where I said sort of huffily "well if you had your eyes closed you wouldn't see scary things" ... yeah, not really the kinda help a three year old needs mom. Please send good safe sleep vibes to Lucy and please send me rational and loving parenting vibes.