Skip this post if you don't want to indulge me. It's my semi-annual "I don't wanna be a working mom" post. This morning I just felt stressed for Lucy and did my fair share of "it's not fair". I feel bad for the kid. She's at this amazing preschool program and we love it, it's nearly perfect for Lucy. Lots of art and sensory exploration, not too rigid, young and energetic staff. This program would be absolutely ideal as a HALF-DAY program for my 4 year old. Full days are hard for a few reasons: 1. the program is designed as two half-day classes which can be combined to become a full-day experience. At "half-time" the class shifts and mostly new kids come in fresh from the streets to start their educational experience, meanwhile the full-day kids are just starting to get testy and tired. During the summer, even the teaching staff shifts mid-day. Not only that but there are kids that just go a few days a week during the school year, and during the summer it's week long half-day camps. Lucy goes to both halves of every day every week, while the other campers are shifting each week and each half day (follow me?). 2. Lucy will be Lucy and it's hard for her to stay at the top of her game on a good day, for a few hours ... it's inevitable that she'll slip as the day progresses.
If I had all the money in the world I think I would choose to have her in this program half days every day and hire a nanny for the other half of the day. Seeing as I have barely enough to cover our daily expenses, that won't be happening.
I might be sensitive and over reacting today as it's her first day of the new summer camp preschool programming. Maybe Lucy will get in the groove faster then I am. Of course it's also Minnesota which means it'll be snowing in a week and we'll be back to fall style programming.
I just want her to succeed and feel good about herself and her ability to hold it together. I want the other kids, staff and parents to see her as a good girl and not an explosive kid.