Friday, April 24, 2009

Friday night

oops, Lucy spilled a bowl of flour on Zep.



I am trying so hard to remember that if this past week has been incredibly hard, frustrating and exhausting for me that it must be nothing but hell for Lucy. It's hard. She's an emotional wreck. Everything that was hard about her before is like tripled right now except her energy level. She seems to be converting her physical energy into emotional abuse. We are both pretty much lunatics right now. I just hope that she can sleep tonight. I hope she feels better and stays that way starting now. We had the worst night ever last night. I am unbelievably exhausted and stressed. Lucy has been spontaneously crying in pain and needing to rock. I feel like such a wimp when I think of all the families who have children suffering week after week from major illnesses, but I give ... I give. Lucy gives. I thought this week would be hard but I never thought it would be this hard.

9 comments:

cathy said...

You're doing great, Stacy. You really are. I promise she won't remember how hard this is. It will blur in her memory. You will always remember, but that's ok. I promise you'll both turn the corner soon.

3GenerationsFarm said...

Hang in there, hon. I can't imagine what you're going through. We're thinking of you and Lucy (especially M who can't stop talking about it). Call if you need to. This too shall pass (easy for me to say....).

Jennifer said...

I hope it's true it gets worse before it get's better! Your's and Lucy's "better" is on the way!!

Nancy said...

Awh Stacy. I wish I could wish it all better for you.

Mark and Sarah said...

I'm so sorry, Stacy. I don't comment much but I am a loyal reader and feel like I know you guys. Hearing the pain in your post is so sad. Know that things will get better, and sooner I'm sure. Hang in there. Hopefully you have some good friends close by who can come and give you a wee break too, or just a shoulder to cry on.

Sarah
http://trektoethiopia.blogspot.com

LoveNotes4CocoPrincess said...

Oh my Dear Stacy. I wish I were able to be there and watch Lucy for you while you get some much needed rest! All I can do on this side of the world is whisper up prayers...I'm thinking about you!

Hang In There Mommy!

Kerri said...

Poor Lucy and poor mom! Hope things are better soon.

Evelyn said...

From all I've read in your blog, you are such a great mom! I hope Lucy gets better soon! Hang in there, you are doing a great job.

Chatter said...

Oh Stacy, I'm so sorry. You are a wonderful mom and I think Cathy put it perfectly - she won't remember how hard this is -. You are doing wonderful! I know this is a few days old but I really wanted to comment. Exhaustion, anger, frustration and high emotions do not mix well. Hope you both are getting some rest now!