I am trying so hard to remember that if this past week has been incredibly hard, frustrating and exhausting for me that it must be nothing but hell for Lucy. It's hard. She's an emotional wreck. Everything that was hard about her before is like tripled right now except her energy level. She seems to be converting her physical energy into emotional abuse. We are both pretty much lunatics right now. I just hope that she can sleep tonight. I hope she feels better and stays that way starting now. We had the worst night ever last night. I am unbelievably exhausted and stressed. Lucy has been spontaneously crying in pain and needing to rock. I feel like such a wimp when I think of all the families who have children suffering week after week from major illnesses, but I give ... I give. Lucy gives. I thought this week would be hard but I never thought it would be this hard.