Monday, September 14, 2009

FULL - ON

Some days are challenging. OK let's be honest, as a whole MOST days are challenging. Some moments are more challenging and some moments are more magical. Coming home from work this after noon was less then magical. I walk in the playroom, she scowls. Go back to work she hisses. UGGGGHHH. You know, some days it takes every single drop of reserve I have to not turn and leave. Fake the smile, fake the serenity ... fake it until you make it. It's always those transitions that prove most difficult. Dropping off, picking up, starting dinner, finishing dinner, arriving, departing ... Doesn't help when these days start at 6:30.
Doesn't help that I go through these moments, and then go to work with families who are also challenging, amongst children that are challenging and co-workers (not Mel) who quite frankly are challenging.

but at the end of the day, I know, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I love Lucy for all she is, the energy, the full-on 100% engaged in life and all its emotions. She does it all full-on.


5 comments:

Halei said...

Hi! I stumbled across your blog and must say your daughter is beautiful!! I'm in school working on an MSW. I admire what you do so much and being a single mom on top of that! Hope you don't mind me reading!!

StefB said...

All I can say is, "I'm so with you!" My 3 year old (from Guatemala) shares some characteristics with Lucy. I'm single and work as a special education teacher. I wake my daughter at 6:15. She is FULL-ON! Thankfully that includes "knock-you-over-hugs" and such. Tiring? Yes!

Stefanie, mom to Tiana

beth. said...

After reading this post, I believe our little girls would either be best of friends - or plot together to take-over world.

Its a toss up.

beth - mom of a 'always on' girl, too.

Malia'sMama said...

She is definitely her own little person. God bless her- and YOU :)

Day to Day Tripper said...

Transitions do get better as they get older. I feel like 4 was the hardest for us...5 is better. (A little hope for you...)