Monday, June 25, 2007

My girl




To those of you who know Lucy from afar I have to try to explain in words and photos ... She's an amazing person. I know she's beautiful and she's hilarious but there is SOMETHING about her. It's been that way since I took her home and she wasn't doing much ... people would still catch her eyes, she would stare into them and they would catch their breath. I hope and pray that Lucy grows up and uses this gift for good. I am afraid every day that something will happen that will make her loose her sparkle. It's a dance to protect her and still let her fly. She needs to explore and she needs to find out for herself what her limits are but I really want to keep her close and maintain her bubble of perfection. I don't want her to find out the dirty little secret that people can be mean and people can hurt and the world is not as safe as she believes. I shudder because I know what it will look like when she finds out, I have seen that look in her eyes: I have walked in and seen her get pushed down by a kid at daycare and the SHOCK in her eyes is heartbreaking (even though she's caused that look in other kids many many times). Arrrggghhhhh ... maybe we will move to an island of perfection ... who wants to come along???

7 comments:

Karen Travels said...

Your blog is sooooooooo inspirational for me. I cannot wait until the day I adopt (most likely a girl from India) but I have a few things to conquer first. In the mean time I read great blogs like yours!!

Anonymous said...

I know what you mean! It comes through in her photos! And, honestly, Mal has it too. We can be anywhere, and people are just drawn to her. The funniest is teenaged boys vying for her attention, and man, what a flirt!
I will join you on the island, btw! lol
Blessings,
MalĂ­a's Mama
http://www.toadfire.com/blog_full.jsp?blogID=3152

curlz and curveballs said...

Nice blog. The hardest job of parenting may well be striking that balance between protecting and letting them figure it out on there own. I still struggle with that balance...because the natural inclination is to always protect them from any hurt or failure.

Stacie said...

I just got goose bumps from your post - especially this line - "It's a dance to protect her and still let her fly." Very beautifully said. And, her sparkle definitely comes through in her photos!

Nancy said...

I wanna go to that island Stacy!

It seems the human spirit has an amazing ability to transcend all the stuff that tries to weigh us down. Lucy in every way bears that strength and in such a darling little package!

jayme said...

I'm in for the island escape. Let me know when we depart.

Laura said...

I'm in for the island. I'm always talking about communal living and this sounds like the perfect solution. maybe we can convince Tom and Katie to buy us one as fellow Scientologist, then once we get there we can tell them we lied and by then they'll love us...or we'll kick them off the island :)