Monday, June 25, 2007
To those of you who know Lucy from afar I have to try to explain in words and photos ... She's an amazing person. I know she's beautiful and she's hilarious but there is SOMETHING about her. It's been that way since I took her home and she wasn't doing much ... people would still catch her eyes, she would stare into them and they would catch their breath. I hope and pray that Lucy grows up and uses this gift for good. I am afraid every day that something will happen that will make her loose her sparkle. It's a dance to protect her and still let her fly. She needs to explore and she needs to find out for herself what her limits are but I really want to keep her close and maintain her bubble of perfection. I don't want her to find out the dirty little secret that people can be mean and people can hurt and the world is not as safe as she believes. I shudder because I know what it will look like when she finds out, I have seen that look in her eyes: I have walked in and seen her get pushed down by a kid at daycare and the SHOCK in her eyes is heartbreaking (even though she's caused that look in other kids many many times). Arrrggghhhhh ... maybe we will move to an island of perfection ... who wants to come along???